Vacation: Temporary Relief From Scholarly Work May Hold The Secrets To Fill Ones Life With New Life Energy

Fall Break 2006 (or more realistically Fall two days off) was a great time to catch my breath and realize that school wasn’t everything. Sadly, though this feeling didn’t last for long, as Monday soon approached at a very accelerated pace.

Thursday started off with me going to the Commons to spend the morning reading the book, “A Series of Unfortunate Events: The End” by Lemony Snicket. I managed to read it at a very accelerated pace and with a few hours, I had half the book finished. After that event transpired, I proceeded to go to my favorite bible study group. WE spoke of temptation and managed to listen to several members perform great musical pieces, I of course didn’t know the songs. The background singers really had a great voice and consistently made me smile as their talent was profound! That night, I went to the library and stayed there while watching several episodes of Yugioh GX. I managed to finally finish the first season.

Friday opened up with me going on a tour for the welcome center. It was a very profound and exciting event, as I was able to go along with a friend and take quite a large group on a tour of the campus. We traveled for nearly an hour and explored the darkest and dreariest places on campus. After that tour, I believe that I went get my hair cut for my parents arrival. I hadn’t had it cut in weeks so it was tragically annoying to me! But after that event, I raced to the commons to scoop a drink and then I went to the library for several hours. I watched some more episodes of Yugioh GX and then went back to the dorm to patiently wait for the arrival of my family.

When I got home that evening, I was excited. It was as if being in their presence illuminated my day and provided me with life replenishing water. My entire negative thoughts of life were soon put on the backburner as I discovered truly what it was like to really enjoy life and have people to enjoy life with!

The next day was spent going to my Grandma’s House to visit my relatives. It was another exciting event as I was able to see several cousins, aunts, uncles, and even grandma! I even had the chance to finally eat some of Grandma’s cooking, and it was terrific!

Sunday was spent at church of course and it was another life refreshing event. I couldn’t believe that it was one of the best Sunday’s of the year, ever, Family and Friends Day! So here is what happened, through a combinative effect of seeing several peers whom I hadn’t seen in a while, the inspiration music that I have grown to love and missed, and the speaking of life from the preacher himself, I was able to really see that life is good indeed. He even spoke about my current troubles and I realized that I am wrong every time I declare that life is pointless. It is a sign that we have no trust and faith in God and that is not good, no not good at all.

That evening, I made my way back to Richmond with my parents. We stopped at one of the best restaurants ever, Cheddars!

I know I have managed to skip very important sensory details, but this was a very tiring weekend, and I am now feeling the full effects of it. I don’t think it is sleep but rather the ominous feeling that one is tired of life. I am not really tired of it, but here at VCU I truly feel as if has abandoned me. Somewhere in my soul is this nagging and ugly instinct that I keep resorting to whenever I am alone and am thinking, it is like saying “Tristan, why do you wake up each day, why do you not do something to eliminate your minor presence on Earth, you have nothing to live for, no viable and lasting goals to fulfill, nothing to look forward to, in fact the only thing you have is that you are going to heaven once you die, so why not hasten your time in getting there!” It is this, this spirit that is inhibiting my happiness, so now I have to figure out someway to banish it and eliminate it from myself; in fact, I fear it is too late for it has been there for nearly six years now. I want some help!